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Solace of the Shadows
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Go go go!!!
Monday, July 19, 2004
And so i sit here in my office at 4am in the morning with my eyes dried out and my thoughts blurry while waiting for my colleagues to give me a lift home i decide to blog briefly.
Sometimes, when you think you have had a really horrible, mind numbing day, somehow or rather it's followed by a soothing backwash of indifference and warped accomplishment. Like, amazingly i survived today. Only to experience another hellish one ahead. But then again, right now i couldn't really give a damn about how the day ahead is going to be like.
I feel so jaded. It sounds so typical to say that, but i rarely do. Maybe it's the end of the second quarter of the work year and the usual barrage of instructions and directions come bashing in, who knows. But alot of things (revolving mostly around work) seem to lack purpose and fail to motivate me to complete it well. Maybe it's because spending the entire day in the office and the entire night involved in a complicated Exercise seems overly demanding. But after it's all over, a completely different feeling overcomes you. Mostly its relief. And a very small sense of achievement.
Following another train of thought, sometimes you want things to be perfect and you want to ensure something is really special, but somehow you eventually miss the point entirely and end up with practically nothing to begin with. How does one counter that situation.
With too many things running through the head, and sleep slowly creeping in, this brief blog entry ends before it makes any less sense.
Last week was made much more bearable 4 days out of 7 with you.
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
I have quite a few things to say, but lately i haven't been compelled to blog about it simply because the need to has somewhat faded into obscurity now that i've found a much better source to confide in. However i shall blog whenever the need arises.
Needless to say, work has been insurmountably piling up. I've kind of adapted myself to the workload and obstacles which inevitably package themselves into the task, but i've been highly irritated by one thing. I absolutely hate it when people say, without actually thinking or bothering to think, that my job is slack and i don't seem to have much work. Fair enough, i don't have to prove that i do have alot of work and neither would it serve to prove any point nor would it help my cause. But nevertheless, the feeling of wanting to punch the person in between the eyes will remain there.
Just because he/she may so happen to catch me while i'm listening to music/checking random junk mail/taking a break in the canteen, doesn't mean they should immediately make the grand assumption that i'm not doing much. The reason why i'm able to do all this, is because i MAKE THE DAMN TIME to do so. Regardless of whether i'm flooded with work or not, i try to ensure that i make time for everything else. Be it "slacking in the canteen" or going for gym. Just because these people don't know how the hell to manage their time, they subsequently assume no one else can.
I guess whatever it is, no matter what i feel, it doesn't change things. I'm still inundated with work. Fullstop.
On the other hand, i've haven't felt more undaunted towards my work than before due to a reliable source of encouragement. Thanks dear, for keeping me company when i needed it in the office.
In other matters, today was just an awesome day. Met up with Roslan, Frinn, Arzish, Ahmad, Elaine and of course dear Fatin in town. Thanks to Elaine, we devoured many chocolate at Sins at Marche. Chocolate tastes best when its free. I only recently found out that BK is offering their Whopper Meal at a ridiculous price of $3.90 (hey its singapore) so i'm going to take every chance i get to exploit this while it lasts (and simultaneously allow BK to exploit my patronage and reap profits).
Many random moments today, but i can't seem to recall it anymore i guess. Days like these are sadly quite rare. But i thoroughly enjoyed myself. (This excludes the part of the day spent in office). Oh well, til the next time, take care folks.
and of course, i love you dear
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